Back after 5 years! thought of re-starting the blog as a personal diary to myself. Last 4-5 years i have been suffering from anxiety. The intensity varies from very bad to 0 and each phase lasts months. the latest trigger to re-starting the blog is high BP that i got diagnosed with and as an anxiety prone mind works typically, i made up a lots of stuff in my mind of having serious health issues. therefore i want to record everyday how i feel and come back to it when things are not great to be able to say...last time i felt such anxiety, it turned out to be nothing

High BP is not a small matter but can be managed with medicine and diet. Doc says its genetic as is my high cholesterol which i got diagnosed with as well during all the tests that doc made me do. 

it means giving up on things i love..like red meat, wine, ocassional smoking & high fat foods like pizza, etc. Red meat doesnt hurt so much as i anyways dont like to eat it after i lost my non veg partner in papa. Ocassional smoking and other things are fine as well.

i have only 1 goal..to be fit and healthy till my kids are grown up and become independent. all my decisions henceforth would be basis that vision in mind. God has been kind that i have a stable job and money should not be a big issue if i continue to be employed for next 5 years. Health is the biggest focus for rest of life.